*hasn't seen any of those...feels deprived*

ahhh... you should!! Dark City is the best! the director of The Crow did that movie

*hugs* I want you as you are, nothing changed, nothing different about you. You are awsome Spike, I know that someday you'll find someone who loves you for who you are. *nuzzles* I know because I do. Have fun hon!

I will!!*hugs*

You know, if that one Pueblo guy told you all of your 'crappy bits' or whatever.. I'll rip him to shreds. Everyone has em.. so what? You don't go around hurting other people with yours. And if you do, you're the type to take responsibility for it.

It's bastards that do things without remorse of thinking of possible consequences that get on my nerves. Of course, that is where most people go and label me off as a 'disturbed video game player' or a 'justice freak' or a 'holier than thou' .. but hell, I would rather take that than allow myself to be an asshole.

Spike, I'm sure you know perfectly well what you want to be. That's good, and you have my personal permission to shove a boot up this guy (or gal's) behind. Don't got a boot? No problem. I have one right here and I'll be happy to mail you it and it's mate. Of course, my mom will probably kill me for doing so.. but I think it would be worth it :P

The only thing I can say is as long as you are aware that you are not perfect, and you are consciously trying to determine how to better yourself.. well, that's about the best you can do. It takes a good understanding of why you do things, before you can try to change them. And that is why no one has a right to tell you what is wrong with you, or what you need to do.
After you understand yourself.. then you can try to change it. But only do so slowly. It's like smoking a cigarette -- changes in lifestyle will fail if you try to go too fast. But a good, long term resolve will be what gets you through.

And I'm not telling you that you need to change yourself. Just.. stating my oppinions in the matter. I mean, hell. I know I am creepy. It's something I've gotten used to, just like you may be used to being paranoid, if you see yourself that way. In some ways, I am paranoid as well.

One of the things I have been trying to change is my addiction to video games. I mean, I LOVED video games, and spent more time on figuring out equations for them, or trying to figure out skill or stat placements, gear combinations, and other junk, than I did on schoolwork.

I haven't been on a video game in about a week. I actually quit for my last 2 months of school, during the spring, but then got re-addicted because I found that I was 'responsible' for running a guild. Needless to say.. I haven't gotten my book series done at all over the summer.

So. Coming to terms. I may go back on a video game. I'm not pressuring myself on that.. because I can play a video game. It's good, it's fun.. but I found the thing that really gets me bogged down with them is the guild part. So, no more guilds for Arethniel. Nopes. None. I will not lead a guild. Maybe I will join a guild, if the agreement leads to me being taken care of so that I will play the video game LESS. But I am DONE with being a guild leader.
You can tell me if that is me coping, or going into denial :P

Now.. I need to deal with my growing obssession of furcadia and yiffing. AGAIN. Gods.. if I'm not in one gutter, I am in another.

Anyway.. be well Spike. You ARE a goddess in your own right.. and don't let anyone ever intrude with that.

PS: Did I mention my boot is steel toe'd?

Oh yeah. I meant to ask. What is a 'Fluffy' Size?

heavey...Its a nice way my sister says some one is chubby. and thanks for the sweet words.

Pft. Fine. I can give sweet words.. but I still don't get hugs. I see how it is. :P

sorry! *hugs* i was half asleep

Woohoo! Hugs make everything better! -hugs back and junk-

Just.. don't go through my post and tell me that it is creepy, now that you are awake. o.O